January 2011
Summary of the day
I had two telephone interviews for banks. I probably failed ahah, I hate interviews. I also told one of the guys that it wasn’t for me due to the fact that they wanted me to move around. For example: be in Manchester for 3 months, Ashton for 4 weeks..etc. No. I then got a call from fuck knows and they told me they want me for an interview. It turns out it’s in Salford and I have no...
I want the magic of love again. The look of longing in his eyes. All the wonder and surprise of knowing that the best is yet to come..No confusion, he’s a man who has many dreams, but it’s so confusing to always be in between. I want the magic of love again, that subtle sorcery of the heart.
I have:
A hot chocolate, 2 bottles of lucozade, Canada dry ginger ale, chicken in the oven, a cigarette and a Sunday magazine. Today is going to be a good day!
no sleep, fuck yeahhhhh.
I am in dyer
need of caffeine to keep me awake, but I’m not going downstairs until it’s light. I hate being in a dark house on my own - so I’ll wait. Also, I’m not going to go to sleep until it’s light either - or at all because I’m scared when it’s dark, I’m alone and I’ve got nobody in the bed to make me feel safe, my mind runs away with thoughts and I...
It's
06:10 and I’ve not been to sleep yet. Instead of going to sleep at a reasonable time my mind decided to give me one of my paranoia/anxiety periods of which I’m afraid to be in the house on my own. Rob then decided he was going to stay on-line and talk to me, just so I felt safe - which is lovelyyy. We’ve had such a nice talk and he’s still on-line talking to me now...
Listen
It’s almost like you’re here with me, although we’re far apart.
You should be here. You should be here right now.
anybody interesting who wants to talk
add: oliviamaria@hotmail.co.uk
because tbh I’m now alone in my house, just watched J-horror and I am now freaking scared. Need a nice conversation!
I love freaky Japanese horror films :’) they’re the best or J-horror for more of you film fans! Watching Shutter now, it’s a pretty good story!
I really wish you knew how I was feel. I wish you knew the emotional strength, care and love I share for you. You have no idea the millions and millions of thoughts that run through my brain every single minute of the day. They revolve around you: your safety, your happiness, my love for you, our memories. I wish you knew why things make me upset, what the reason was and understand. It’s not...
Another telephone interview for a job with RBS! (:
only 50 minutes through the first episode of skins and she has a cigarette. Fucking hardcore.
Much time has passed between us
do you still think of me at all?
I love play fights that turn into sex
What really amuses me
is when people have a job/interview or have just gotten one and you congratulate them and ask where it is and they go all quiet and secretive…like you’re going to apply and try and steal their job. HAHA!
Magic 105.4
is amazinggggggg (:
really want to go down London soooooon!
I’ve got a really bad urge to watch The Notebook again. Would I be crazy to watch it 3 nights in a row?
Just feel entirely sick :( felt like this for daysssss, want to get better. I want to go for a run, but my mum hates me running in the park at this time, ‘cause it’s dark and isolated.
ugh
Anybody know where I can get a kitten from, preferably in Manchester area for under £40?
The Notebook
sex scene is not in the slightest awkward, it’s beautiful.
“They didn’t agree on much, in fact they rarely agreed on anything. They...”
– The Notebook
“My mother, who’s an assistant librarian, introduced me to his writing when I was...”
– Morrissey on Oscar Wilde (via mozandmarr)
i love this.
Lets run away for the day..
30 day challenege
Weird things you do when you’re alone:
Dance around the house Thinking about the craziest things loads of crazy thingsssssssss, can’t think now
How have you changed in the past 2 years:
I’ve gotten my life back on track, become more motivated, got a beautiful boyfriend, changed my hair, friends and traits. I’ve changed loadss
At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself talking to the Moon Try to get to you In hopes you’re on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon
Just made myself
a hot chocolate to make myself feel better. Today has not been one of the best days.
I know I'm not perfect
but at the end of the day, who is?
Absolutely
sooooooooo excited now. I cannot actually wait (L)(L)(L)(L)
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